Thursday after Ash Wednesday

Thursday after Ash Wednesday

With my Lenten goal to daily sit in silence, I began yesterday with the prayer suggestion from Richard Rohr, "God, give me the desire to desire what you want me to desire." I set the phone alarm for thirty minutes and 5 minutes later, my husband came home. ;-) After checking in with him, I reset the alarm and began again. Then the phone rang, even though I thought I had shut off the alarm. I think God has a wonderful sense of humor. In my attempt to make the silence happen, life just kept showing up!

When I finally found some silence, my mind was flooded with random bible references. So here it is...the random bible references. What is that about, one may wonder? Frankly, I have wondered for many years too!

A brief bit of history: when I was a teenager growing up in Bismarck, ND, I became very involved with my local Catholic Church and the charismatic renewal. I loved the openness found in this worship and amidst much turmoil in my life, I felt a deep sense of belonging. I remember buying my first bible, “The Jerusalem Bible”, and that is when it started: the random bible references. I would try to pray and voila, several references would float into my head; typically a Psalm, a gospel chapter and something else—and they were usually relevant to my situation, question or what I was exploring.

Needless to say, I NEVER told anyone because I found it rather odd; felt completely embarrassed and unworthy--but probably was most afraid that I would be held more accountable for my behavior and life if someone actually found out! I have since discovered that I am not the only person to experience this strange phenomenon and much to my relief, I am not expected to be perfect—thank goodness—and until now, I have told very few.

After high school, I left the organized church for many years but continued on a spiritual journey, exploring many traditions and paths but the journey eventually came full circle. Here I am, much to my utter amazement, rooted firmly in the tradition of my youth: the Catholic Church. As often as I wrestle with this journey, I seem to always be led back to this place. God does have a great sense of humor…but I digress…

It is not surprising to me that in my attempt at silence yesterday, four bible references popped up: Matthew 15, 1 John 3, Colossians 3 and Hebrews 9. I pulled out my bible and began to read, listening to see if something struck me.
Here is a glimpse at what I took from these readings.

  • Matthew 15: O Woman, great is your faith! Let it be done for you as you desire.
  • 1 John 3: We are already children of God but what we are to be in the future has yet to be revealed. All we know is that when it is revealed, we shall be like him because we shall see him as he really is.
  • Colossians 3: Set your minds on things that are above…Let the peace of Christ rule in your hearts…Let the word of God dwell in you richly. You are serving the Lord Christ. Always be thankful.
  • Hebrews 9: I have no idea!!

I began my silence with the question about desire, wanting to desire what God desires for me. I feel like the Spirit is encouraging me to not worry about the future as it has yet to be revealed but I am to set my mind on the things that are above, let the peace of Christ rule in my heart and the word of God dwell in me, serving with gratitude. Not a bad way to begin the Lenten journey!

I am grateful to have a place to share my journey with others—and although I have no idea why this feels like the right thing to do, I trust that God is with us all on our journey. May your journey be filled with the peace of God.

Blissfully, Susan

2 comments (Add your own)

1. Emily Yost wrote:
Hi Susan!

Wow, I love how your new site is coming along! You're design must be amazing! wink wink!


Thu, March 10, 2011 @ 11:45

2. Kenna Rose wrote:
Hey Mum!
Fantastic post! I really enjoyed reading about what you were reflecting and praying on. It's great that you shared this :)
Lot's of love!
-Kenna Rose

Fri, March 11, 2011 @ 11:45

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def. Bliss: -noun Supreme Happiness, Utter Joy/Contentment; the Joy of Paradise!